What if...

You see the world in black and white
No colour or light
You think you'll never get it right
But you're wrong. You might. - coldplay, "low"

Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
That's the risk that you take. - coldplay "what if"

what if my world is black and white without colour and light? I am starting to think I might never get it right, the last wek or so has been very interesting trying to figure some of life's questions, and not getting far. what of this work, to stay unhappy in a well paid monotonous postion or change, take a step which could be my biggest mistake and rediscover the fun side of working.
I used all the grace granted and It seems the pedestal theory doesn't always apply as it was to "weird", or perhaps it does but requires more communication as to what both people ould like and are willing to give.
So, to persue a relationship? To aim for contentment with one who I admire or to move on by going back to how it was? and always wondering what might have been had i only persued the horizon for a little bit longer chasing a dream. A Reason ... To Change who I used to be?
On a random note, I am seriously considering getting rid of my mobile I plan to use it more of an incase of emergency. Another guy I know bases not having a mobile on "if you can't reach me at home then clearly I'm busy doing somthing." I like his thinking.
Other than that, today we trek off toward the mid north coast in search of great diving and time with family, hope the sharks are still about so we get some great pictures and come back with all our limbs.

So the real black and white has more colours than a rainbow and I'm more confused than ever but with enough time, thought, and wisdom it will all come good.

Have a great day and a safe and joyous 2007