Stuck in a moment

Well this one is one that no amount of solitaire can help me solve, a good few hours siting in solace thinking, trying to conjure up a solution. What to do and how to go about it? Diamonds and coal is all I can consider now which isn’t helping with this situation when there is always something there to remind me. Sleep is the easy answer but the predicament is still unsolved. To deal with it, to solve it and to move along live the rest of life which feels as though I’m going along without it at the moment while I search for a solution everything else left in limbo. People’s feelings and emotions are involved and I believe they are something that can not be toyed with so to tread lightly but to express true honest feelings. Thus being my dilemma …

Well that was a very exhausting weekend a late happy Australia Day to all for friday, which is where it all began. Diving on the boat a couple of times then home and out for a ride around the 15 - 18 kms distance the longest I've done for ages. Saturday was a little easier went diving watched a movie, then went for a short run at the oval kicking a soccer ball around. Yesturday was great fun but today is another story, shoulders, arms and legs are all a bit sore but for the experience and a day out with a friend it was well worth it, plus now if I ever want to torture myself again I know where to find this 26 km track of every type of riding available. Other than the heat it was fantastic riding, up hills were at times a bit sketchy with soft gravel making it that bit trickier the downhills were great but it's obvious I hadn't been out on the bike for ages as it usually meant a slower decent than normal. Great company with three other people had a good chat with the guide up front for a while just cruising along. Towards the then (last 5 kms) we hit the single track section and it was also good in fairly good condition not to eroded fast and winding. So here comes the whole fitness craze i'm determined to have the abs of a few years ago back soon and with a little more effort it can happen.

Here's one for you.

An interesting evening out with the grandparents off to the raffle to try and win a meat tray. Very exciting! Oh we came so close yet came home with nothing more than $20 less than when we walked into the place, but they enjoyed it, and I guess that is what some part of life could be about, people enjoying themselves.

About last night I went for a dive, interesting, to say the least, more so very enjoyable I have found the true "freedom of diving" yes Oceanic make great dive gear and that is their slogan I am using but try take off all the gear besides the mask snorkel fins, boots and the bcd, that's right I'm implying you try diving naked!
By the time I decided to go it was already 630 then I had to select a spot that wasn't busy so there went shiprock, oak park had a sizeable swell so off to Lilly pilli I went where there were a few people fishing but none that could see what I was doing under the water, lucky for them I'd say they'd have been scared for life.
not a long dive only 16mins to a depth of 7.1 mtrs with a temperature of 24 degrees the warmest I've had all year. But long enough and deep enough to count as a dive and to celebrate my 100th dive which was a few weeks ago.
So next time you're out for a dive try it naked you just might enjoy yourself, however I recommend checking the water temp 1st

What an Adventure

I resigned today from work as of mid febuary i will no longer walk in circles. Moving on feels like the weight is lifting from my shoulders yet with a nervous eagerness for the future.
Mack ... well what can i say ... genius, i know you want to be shy about it but seriously, i felt honoured that you would spend so much of your time with me so a sincere thanks for that and all the wisdom and inspiration you shared and imparted to me, if i can live up to half of it, well i'll be doing well. Enjoy your travels Mate! and i hope you find the questions you're looking for.

Dinner tonight was nice relaxed and the movie was funny yet i stand by my confused statement
why is it the words never come out right and when they start to make sense it's too late?
a few weeks hanging out and already it's hard to let go
"Such as Life"

I am starting to see this year as one of oppotunity and change i hope it's for the better.
within reason this shall be my theme of life for the next year;
Courage is the power to let go of the familiar. -- Raymond Linquist
Reality is wrong. Dreams are for real. -- Unknown
The surest way to get anything in this life is to be prepared. Remember you are braver than you believe, you are stronger than you seem, and you are smarter than you think. -- A.A. Milne
We cannot lead a choiceless life. Every day, every moment, every second, there is a choice. If it were not so, we would not be individuals.-- Ernest Holmes
Sometimes the best way to figure out who you are is to get to that place where you don't have to be anything else. -- Unknown (i once was told i became someone else depending who i was around and i guess it's true) as i was just reminded via text as i type this blog.
enough of the quotes.
It's the journey not the destination. Where ever the journey takes me i'm going ot be living it.
Have a great day.

What if...

You see the world in black and white
No colour or light
You think you'll never get it right
But you're wrong. You might. - coldplay, "low"

Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
That's the risk that you take. - coldplay "what if"

what if my world is black and white without colour and light? I am starting to think I might never get it right, the last wek or so has been very interesting trying to figure some of life's questions, and not getting far. what of this work, to stay unhappy in a well paid monotonous postion or change, take a step which could be my biggest mistake and rediscover the fun side of working.
I used all the grace granted and It seems the pedestal theory doesn't always apply as it was to "weird", or perhaps it does but requires more communication as to what both people ould like and are willing to give.
So, to persue a relationship? To aim for contentment with one who I admire or to move on by going back to how it was? and always wondering what might have been had i only persued the horizon for a little bit longer chasing a dream. A Reason ... To Change who I used to be?
On a random note, I am seriously considering getting rid of my mobile I plan to use it more of an incase of emergency. Another guy I know bases not having a mobile on "if you can't reach me at home then clearly I'm busy doing somthing." I like his thinking.
Other than that, today we trek off toward the mid north coast in search of great diving and time with family, hope the sharks are still about so we get some great pictures and come back with all our limbs.

So the real black and white has more colours than a rainbow and I'm more confused than ever but with enough time, thought, and wisdom it will all come good.

Have a great day and a safe and joyous 2007